Keep smiling, no matter what :))

I sit here with a smile on my face,
I smile as I breathe in deep,
I smile as I close my eyes

blinking with tears
and I smile all day long;

the sky is dark,

as the freezing winds
seep into my bones,
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;

I wait here frozen in time, 

with my feelings torn apart, 

my heart encased in a tomb, 

I smile to mask my true emotions;

smile is all that I do day in and day out,
the mask that I wear is so perfect,
one needs to come a lot closer,

to see the tears trickling down my eyes;

the days are long,
the nights longer still.

I try to find the light,
but find comfort only in the dark;

emotions swell inside,  walking on a broken path,

I look up for the rainbow
hoping that one day I will get off
this broken path and onto a new one;

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A broken smile is a smile that is false to hide the pain inside!!

But just keep smiling, things will get better soon..

when you have faith in the ones who love you the most!!hmmmm.

Lord, I want you to be with me always...

Lord, I want your heart to be in my heart
For in You I come alive,moving ahead

from boring death to exciting life!

In your promises, I will move from
discouragement to hope.

In your pardon, I will move from
shame to glory.

In your power, I will move from
weakness to strength.

In your providence , I will move from
failure to success!

Thank you Lord.

These lines remind me something....and I am reading them and praying them same to my Lord to help me overcome my emotions and feelings,my tears,my weakness and to help me in finding all the answers which pops up in my mind every now and then. Nothings lasts forever, even the day has to come to an end be that a good or bad. My day might come to an end soon and next day begins with new hopes and shining sun.But I don't want to be stuck all again where I was. I have to move on with the things, which has no answers which will tend to hurt me again and again in Life. All I know is, no matter how much someone hurts you, or is hard with you, at first you might be annoyed or pissed off but at the end of the day you will wait for that person.I wonder why some people are so hard who even doesn't care that much and why are some people so caring that no matter someone values it or not they wont stop!!!Emotions ,feelings.. heart ..love...and what more? where you have them , Pain will be your best friend always standing behind...just be ready for the hard hit..!!