What to Say and What not too !!

Whenever I try to change my mind with certain things...or just make up my mind to get on with the decision..something happens in my life which act as a big influence tool to the decision..
Either of the two things happen one.. which I always wished for.. and other which I never wished for..
And I am again lost :(  Things sometimes happen so late.......especially when you had left it or was not in mood with it....for you its was fine but for others it was...................... :(
Because I know if things wouldn't have happened, and me moving with my decision.. would have been acceptable but now if I stick to what I want.. then it will be hard to digest for everyone!!
Sometimes I don't know am I expressing what I want to say or want others to understand or  it is something else..I don't want to hurt my dear ones.. its just I want them to sometimes understand me..and be with me then and there only.......They do.. every time.. they love me.. care for me... no complaints.. on it..
But some times its just not the right situation .. to go on with the things...
for now I am silent..and don't want to speak on anything.. for a while just wanna be with myself and my feelings.. and then let them disappear in the air....I don't feel like going more with it...
Always smile when you don't want to answer.or actually don't have any answer to anything... or say " hmmmmm"

Looking forward to see you soon............August is not that far.. :P

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry....Looking forward to new and best moments of my life... and I again caught myself smiling on seeing the pictures.. :)) Miss you all..loads of love..

"Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely" on my mind....

Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me


Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me



There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body, and soul
How can it be
You're asking me
To feel the things you never show?

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why can't I be there where you are?

"As Long As You Love Me" ; Backstreet boys :)

As long as you love me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (I don't know)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (yeah)

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did (yeah)
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
As long as you love me
Who you are
As long as you love me
What you did (I don't care)
As long as you love me