Time is playing hard

A day has to come to an end so do feelings... I hope...
It is the time when I should be happy more than anything else ..
no matter what...
but my feelings and my time is getting worse day by day..
breaking , hitting me hard and so hard..
that its becoming difficult for me to bear that pain..
my emotions r just not letting me think anything else..
Why am I in tears so much for those people,
whom it doesnt have any value..!!!!
I pray to my lord
please give me some peace of mind..please..
I cant bear so much of roughness in my life for now!!!!
I want to hug and cry, but I am all alone..:'(
I feel to share or express to someone who can understand
but I cant... :'(((
I sit all alone here..with tears in my eyes.
pain in my heart..disturbance in my mind..
and nothing else...
I am tired of giving fake smile to everyone..
I dont want to see anybody ..
I just want to be within myself which I am.
but may be not in the good way this time.
Please god grant me the serenity to accept the things
that I cant change.. and peace to mind and my heart from everything around me
which is killing me like anything else..!!!:'(((((