God gifted..Blessed :)

Something inspired me to write up again...
Some memories encouraged me to speak up again...
Lost and found smiles added fuel to my writing spirit...
All i am doing is smiling and crying at the same time.... :)


I never thought my wonderful memories would hit me so deeply 
and make me realize what a special gift i have in form of "U".
All those wonderful chats, messages..phone calls.. random meetings after months..
and many more things will ever bring us together as "one for forever"


Today i laugh on all our stupid fights over mails..we had few years ago..
But at the same time i realize time flies away so fast...
And its seems like we are talking about just few days back...


But actually it has been more than 5 years, and those years were wonderful..
Every moment and step we shared together from being stranger to a friend..
from a friend to a very close friend and then just too close...had been awesome..
and now its just all in all "one pure love" with the grace of god...


Basking in the warmth of your smile..
and the music of your laugh...
I feel your tenderness and your oh so witty style...and your "Hae Owee"
To share your tender heart...the warmness of your smile..
the courage of your wisdom...For these I'd walk for miles...........


The sound of your voice is music to my ear
so soft, sweet and clear
the kiss from your lips words cannot explain..
It takes my worries and my pain...
The caress of your hand sends shiver down my spine
Everyday i thank God that you r mine...


The sight of your lovely face takes away all my fears...
You're the one I want to live through out the years..
for an eternity I want to spend in your arms
Everyday graced by your beauty and your charms...


Lot of storms came on our way towards our one common reason "being committed"..

but nothing stopped us from loving each other...rather every hurdle made us stronger than before..
Some thoughts,similar actions and reactions..permanent battles without winner
because the two people have the same destination "be together and love each other forever"


Miss you always..I ll still believe in this...that i am short of words to express all my feelings... :)

It's Just Another Day

For some it's just another day to live....something different is my headline because no matter how hard I try I keep getting the same thing and only the same...nothing different thought it hurts a lot but i wont let it out. I'm not gonna let myself be anything else but different. Today is just a day I sit and stare out the window int o the gloomy grey skies....No sun in sight just a cloudy rainy day. With thoughts all over my mind..heart and eyes filled with tears. Looking at the rainy dark night with a hope and saying to myself its just a another day hny.Everyday has its own meaning, some days are special and some are not. I believed earlier.. some days r special but now i say to myself again and again "its just another day" to console myself from the pain i get from everyday from those special days. I wonder why i keep talking to myself whole day all alone..fighting ..crying..smiling..thinking all alone within my heart. All in all its just another day and it shall pass soon and sun will be on my side, where i can look up at the sky and say "i ll be all right and its just another day S".. 

What is it??

What is it i keep on thinking every time every second of my life? and have no words to express it...
I feel as if i have gone mummm deep inside my heart...
Nothing makes me worry about anything now...
No actually i do but what is it....??
Is it about the love, relationship, friends ..or family or just about ME myself..I....??
No answer..every night pass away thinking about all the questions...
With a hope of new sunrise in my life...
Getting answers to all questions....
Everyday i wake up in the morning with a new hope...
That all will be fine and everything will work in favor of good....
Everyday i smile up to the sky and say i know i ll be alright...
It feels essence have just vanished from my life into the thin air....
At times i feel a life with no emotions..feelings..and just pissed off,...
And i say to my self take me away to a secret place..
to a better days...a better escape ..to a hiding place..
where no one can see me.....
I know i have got myself killed deep inside my heart..
I am not the one i use to be....
But its all ok, with me is it so???? I wonder.....
Everything seems so faded as if the colors aren't anymore..
To feel the colors of my life, i started painting..
tried to understand something, but at the end it felt great....
It feels good when u do something which use to be ur passion at time...
But at the end all i know is, i have lost something
which i dont know how to get that part of mine..
all i have now is silence in my heart..n my words n feelings...
just wish to someone to take me away to better days...
And i ll look up to sky and say i ll be alright.... :)