Time is playing hard

A day has to come to an end so do feelings... I hope...
It is the time when I should be happy more than anything else ..
no matter what...
but my feelings and my time is getting worse day by day..
breaking , hitting me hard and so hard..
that its becoming difficult for me to bear that pain..
my emotions r just not letting me think anything else..
Why am I in tears so much for those people,
whom it doesnt have any value..!!!!
I pray to my lord
please give me some peace of mind..please..
I cant bear so much of roughness in my life for now!!!!
I want to hug and cry, but I am all alone..:'(
I feel to share or express to someone who can understand
but I cant... :'(((
I sit all alone here..with tears in my eyes.
pain in my heart..disturbance in my mind..
and nothing else...
I am tired of giving fake smile to everyone..
I dont want to see anybody ..
I just want to be within myself which I am.
but may be not in the good way this time.
Please god grant me the serenity to accept the things
that I cant change.. and peace to mind and my heart from everything around me
which is killing me like anything else..!!!:'(((((

Ignore it..

Sometimes some things just have to be ignored...
Because they don't bother to bother about the things you care...
then why to wait for them!
why to really care for them!
why why why why!!!
why cant we behave the same way they behave with us
why cant we be so damn hard the way they are
why just we cant..
because that's where we differ from them
but they wont feel and understand the importance
of our caring and they will take us granted to keep understanding them..
2 options are there either adjust with these people and forget about things and move on
or second do the things and make them fucking realize the importance the way they understand hard and feel it.
but both options are upon us and at the end we go through this not they..
choice is our and if something is left any other sol forget about them and their feelings and dont expect and dont do.....(sigh.. I wonder why I keep on repeating certain stupidities again n again!!)

Keep smiling, no matter what :))

I sit here with a smile on my face,
I smile as I breathe in deep,
I smile as I close my eyes

blinking with tears
and I smile all day long;

the sky is dark,

as the freezing winds
seep into my bones,
I sit here smiling silently cold and empty;

I wait here frozen in time, 

with my feelings torn apart, 

my heart encased in a tomb, 

I smile to mask my true emotions;

smile is all that I do day in and day out,
the mask that I wear is so perfect,
one needs to come a lot closer,

to see the tears trickling down my eyes;

the days are long,
the nights longer still.

I try to find the light,
but find comfort only in the dark;

emotions swell inside,  walking on a broken path,

I look up for the rainbow
hoping that one day I will get off
this broken path and onto a new one;

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A broken smile is a smile that is false to hide the pain inside!!

But just keep smiling, things will get better soon..

when you have faith in the ones who love you the most!!hmmmm.

Lord, I want you to be with me always...

Lord, I want your heart to be in my heart
For in You I come alive,moving ahead

from boring death to exciting life!

In your promises, I will move from
discouragement to hope.

In your pardon, I will move from
shame to glory.

In your power, I will move from
weakness to strength.

In your providence , I will move from
failure to success!

Thank you Lord.

These lines remind me something....and I am reading them and praying them same to my Lord to help me overcome my emotions and feelings,my tears,my weakness and to help me in finding all the answers which pops up in my mind every now and then. Nothings lasts forever, even the day has to come to an end be that a good or bad. My day might come to an end soon and next day begins with new hopes and shining sun.But I don't want to be stuck all again where I was. I have to move on with the things, which has no answers which will tend to hurt me again and again in Life. All I know is, no matter how much someone hurts you, or is hard with you, at first you might be annoyed or pissed off but at the end of the day you will wait for that person.I wonder why some people are so hard who even doesn't care that much and why are some people so caring that no matter someone values it or not they wont stop!!!Emotions ,feelings.. heart ..love...and what more? where you have them , Pain will be your best friend always standing behind...just be ready for the hard hit..!!

Moments will welcome us with shower of Love and Blessings ♥

There will be moments that will define eternity,

there will be moments that will be cherished throughout life,

there will be moments that will bring smiles on our face,

there will be moments that will bring the essence of love to feel again,

there will be moments that will bring the warmness of love again,

there will be moments that will bring all the times back,

there will be moments that will make us come more closer,

Each day passes like it will never come to an end...

But I know the days are not that far

to see you again with a big smile :))

to see us together all again!!:))

to welcome all those special moments of ours!!!♥♥

emotions are shit sometimes, they just ruin ur mind nothing else!!

Feels a lot but now I feel there is no one to whom I should share without giving a second thought. Those who are close to me either doesn't have the time to understand or listen because they have their own things to do. I dont feel bad because I know its reality, hun saari umar taan nai koi tade nal har vele reh sakda..
Its better to start dealing with the things on your own rather than expecting or waiting for a shoulder to lean on!!
I am not feeling good right now, something is hurting me a lot and really and I am just trying hard to ignore it so that at least I have peace of mind. Because the one who is hurting me has no idea even if he/she has it wont bothers much.... Even  if it bother then that person is not here to even listen to me to what I cant even express.
Sometime I feel roz da draama he aa life ch, Bc emotions and feelings has no values at times, its us who cry because of someone, jide kar k rohne haan uhnu taan pata v nai hunda, te j pata lag v jave te ki hona aa???
Nothing.. Parmatma de rang v ajeeb ne.. after all its human nature..u just cant or pretend to be strong all the time no matter what..
I am so damn fuking frustrated with my emotions and feelings.. and the work I have!!Yes I get angry on small things because when they don't tend to care about it, it hurt me!! So whats wrong on that??
Wrong is that I care about every small thing for my dear ones and I expect the same.. but it happens and sometimes not..leaving me in a situation  where I have no answers for anything!!
Its like 2:30 am in the morning I am working on my project,sitting in the Library..and what?? I am tired of things in life which disturbs me like anything.. the more I try to forget them the more they come in my mind and remind me of everything..!!
Why the fuck I just cant be alone from everything and giving an attitude to life and all those people with a thought  theek aa karo jo karna aa...!!! why should I be bothered??? It  all shit of emotions and feelings..
Right now also whatever i am writing is what,my emotions and feelings...!!!!"§$!!!§"$§"%§!!
huh!!! I have only 2 options always either to split up in front of that person and end up fighting and hearing things about complaints or I keep silent and ignore it.,.., in both cases I am fucked for some stupid reasons of my own feelings !!! and other last option is ignore it ignore it... which is the most fuking tough task for me!!! huh!!

Damn I am so frustrated with all shits happening one after the other, feel like either kill someone or get killed by someone!!!huh!!!!!!!""§"$!§$"!§%"%!"!! I hate it!!!Emotions and feelings just ruins sometimes..!!!

I need peace for my mind°°°°!!!!!

Counting days....how many left?... :P

Its a great feeling, that I am actually counting days.,..looking at calendar everyday.. and waiting for august..
Hae!! Can't wait to see my better half.. .Its been really long wait ..lots of love,fights,arguments,special moments...shared far away....btw Germany and Canada.. and now everything will be close..closer than even I can imagine :)) Staring @ your picture and thinking when will I see you soon...After wait of 2 years... :P finally everything will turn in our favor.. it will be our time to be together and celebrate happiness of our love and relation..Missing your arms around me :)) I love you more than everything..!!:))♥A gentle word like a spark of light,Illuminates my soul,And as each sound goes deeper,It's YOU that makes me whole..♥♥ ;)

Some answers are just never there.........

Is money everything in Life??? This question pop's up in my mind,sometimes..!!
Can money buy us happiness??
It has no answers, life's experiences and situations makes us think like this...may be...........I dont believe in this.. I think....
Seeing other's ...my near ones, I feel happy about them...but I also wish the same for me..sometimes...!!
Be it like together with Family.. be it with my friends.........spending vacations with my dear ones,going out.. hanging out.. and just be free with myself..free from everything................
Special moments spent with Family really ....................:::::::::::::::::::!!!
Separations are just not easy.........:::::::::::::::::::::::::::!!!!
Time plays a lot...............::::::::::::::::::::::!!!
At the end of the day the only thing I believe is "rabb jo karda change lai karda aa, uss de marji aa.."
Because es tu vaddh apne aap nu tasali den lai hor kug hai nai...
I MISS MY HOME; REAL HOME AND MY FAMILY and MISS BEING TOGETHER!!!!
All thoughts are just so stupid.. written so stupidly because I think everything is just so scattered... trying to collect...

I Don't know what is it, but.. I need U..

Started my day with something I never hoped for...early in the morning.................

hoped the day will go well....but and still hoping something will happen good....In the morning thoughts were lost with full of emotions and feelings.....for some reason.......and now I am again so deeply touched with feelings for some reasons... and I keep on asking WHY!!

I have lot to express.. but I dun know what and how and why!!!Because at present I feel I am stuck somewhere in middle of something.....!!My tears,my inner thing,my heart and my mind says what I dont know..!!Are they saying the same thing or its different aspects..Getting fired with question on my mind and situations..!!!

Trying hard to relax myself and be out of it, the more hard I try the more deeply I get involved and I am not liking it..!!! If my near one's ask tell something, then I don't know what should I say first and what not and from where to start....!!! :'(!! 

I need you to listen me..

I need you to wipe off my tears..

I need you to help me and be out of this..

I need you to understand my silence and pain..

I need you to hug me..

I need you to understand that I am not Ok.no matter how and what I pretend..

I need you to force me hard to speak up..

I need you not to just say and go away but be with me.no matter what..

I need you to feel what I am feeling..

I need you to understand my thoughts,heart,mind and answer them..

I need you to make me cry hugging you....

I need you to cover from everything whatever is hitting me hard..

I need you to see me everyday even If I dont come..

I need you to understand for what I am waiting..and expecting..

I need you to hold my hand...

I need you to kiss me softly and warm me with love..

I just need YOU to be With ME no matter how hard I try to go away from everything..

hmmmmm

Started my day.. and it still goes on with my frozen or freeze or I dun know.... feelings..or what....Nothing to express or tell.. because I don't know whats wrong.or what is there...!!Today I feel or felt Silence came hard and hugged me tightly and asking me not to speak anything..keep it within...urself...So confused and thinking too much even to say a small little thing.. I don't know what to say first or what not, what is good or bad..is it right or wrong.. ..Be  it a sad emotion, happy, confused, tensed... or anything I don't know how to bring it up with my words...I am just so freeze with everything right now and only one thing I have is ............. :'(!!!!!
Hmmmm I wish to be out of this soon..be it  day, feelings or thought or whatever ...because I am just not liking it and its hurting me too much!!!!!!
Have a nice day ahead... miss you!!!

No Surprises ..!!:)

“It is no surprise to me that hardly anyone tells the truth about how they feel. The smart ones keep themselves to themselves for good reason. Why would you want to tell anyone anything that's dear to you? Even when you like them and want nothing more than to be closer than close to them? It's so painful to be next to someone you feel strongly about and know you can't say the things you want to.”

Collection of Feelings ...of my friends :))

This page is about feelings of my friends, my near dear ones's .. be it in form of FB  post, statuses...tags or anything. But they express their feelings as per their moods.. :)) I was thinking to make this page or not but then few of my friends motivated to go for it.. so dedicated to all of them..And you are welcome to keep mailing me your demands.. :)) all these quotes 'I am choosing to mention are my favorite or I can say someone asked me to mention"this one""  This page will be updating whenever I will find something more of my friends feelings to share in my world of blog :)) 

"Strike while Iron is hot ?.....dats pretty dumb !!!!cuz i'll betcha a cold iron will hurt like a hell"     

"To My Wonderful father on Father's Day...♥
You have been there for me, no matter what bad choices I might have made...
You lovingly repaired my broken spirit, helped me plot a new course,
and set me free to fly on my own once again.

There is no greater love that that.
You were...You are....and You will always be special to me.

Love you DAD - thanks for everything
MISS YOU ALOT...!      "                                  By Sabby Baath

"I know I am wrong at times...But I also know you are there to correct me....My Friend.........!!!"      By Gurjeet Arora

"Khushiyan aur gam sehti hai...fir bhi yeh chup rehti hai..ab tak kisi ne naa jana...Zindgi kya...KEHTI HAI..!!!""  By Gurjeet Arora

‎''Supreet Gill: I like it when you smile, but I love it more when I am the reason.."  By Meenal Gupta

"‎Ankit Goyal: The day you came into my life is the day I found my best friend for life. We will always be close no matter what we are or aren't and you are my bestest buddy !!!!"   By Meenal Gupta

"" You Can Hurt A Heart Only Till It Loves You.....Not After That...""" By Harsimran Singh

"During hug ....

A girl's head is always dOwn ..
cuz she considers her boy to be her wOrld .. n gets lOst in it ....
While a bOy's head is always up sO dat nO Other gUy dareS tO lOOk at hIs gIrl......"" By Harsimran Singh

"I c pink pearls in her eyes...the way they glitter...hmm da way she smile....o ma god...I miss a hart beat of mine hmmmmmmhaaaaa :)" By Harkirat Singh 

“‎"Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences, all events are blessings given to us to learn from.” By Arnica Sood 

【ツ】

What I have with him is worth it.It is worth every lonely night,every tear I cry from missing him,& the pain I feel from not having him close.It is worth it because he is my one and only.When I picture myself years from now,I see only me and him. No matter how painful distance can be, paying the price is worth of him!! Miss U!!.:))

What to Say and What not too !!

Whenever I try to change my mind with certain things...or just make up my mind to get on with the decision..something happens in my life which act as a big influence tool to the decision..
Either of the two things happen one.. which I always wished for.. and other which I never wished for..
And I am again lost :(  Things sometimes happen so late.......especially when you had left it or was not in mood with it....for you its was fine but for others it was...................... :(
Because I know if things wouldn't have happened, and me moving with my decision.. would have been acceptable but now if I stick to what I want.. then it will be hard to digest for everyone!!
Sometimes I don't know am I expressing what I want to say or want others to understand or  it is something else..I don't want to hurt my dear ones.. its just I want them to sometimes understand me..and be with me then and there only.......They do.. every time.. they love me.. care for me... no complaints.. on it..
But some times its just not the right situation .. to go on with the things...
for now I am silent..and don't want to speak on anything.. for a while just wanna be with myself and my feelings.. and then let them disappear in the air....I don't feel like going more with it...
Always smile when you don't want to answer.or actually don't have any answer to anything... or say " hmmmmm"

Looking forward to see you soon............August is not that far.. :P

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry....Looking forward to new and best moments of my life... and I again caught myself smiling on seeing the pictures.. :)) Miss you all..loads of love..

"Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely" on my mind....

Show me the meaning of being lonely
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me


Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love (endless love)
There's no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me



There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body, and soul
How can it be
You're asking me
To feel the things you never show?

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why can't I be there where you are?

"As Long As You Love Me" ; Backstreet boys :)

As long as you love me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (I don't know)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me (yeah)

I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you're comin from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby

I don't care who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
What you did
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
Don't care what you did (yeah)
As long as you love me (as long as you love me)
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are (who you are)
Where you're from (where you're from)
As long as you love me
Who you are
As long as you love me
What you did (I don't care)
As long as you love me 

Special one for my Special ones :)) Miss you all alot...!! :(

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Kuch ann kahi c baatein dil mein reh jati hain.......

Kuch baatein ann kahi c.. dil mein reh jati hain..

mann chahe bhi tu bhi zubaan pe nai aa pati hain..

dilon mein hain kashmaksh..c..

phir bhi aankheiin bhar aati hain...

jab yaadein ho saaath..tu sab lagta hai paas..

jab dil mein hota hai vishwaas, tu har tammana hoti hai paas..

kuch khatte c kuch mitthe c pal..humein yaad aate hain..

wohi haste hoye lamhe yaad aate hain..

aapnu se roothna.. apnoon ko mannanaa yaad aata hai..

kuch khatte c kuch meethe c pal yaad aate hain..

hawayein chalti hain..thandi thandi c..

dil ko choo jati hain...

baarish hoti hain.. tu mann halka ho jata hai..

dil mein phir se kashmaksh c chalti hain..

phir aaankhein bhar aati hain..

G karta hai sab kehno ko..

khulle asmaan main udne ko..

hawaoin se baate karne ko..

sab kug bhulla kar jeene ko...

par phir bhi kuch ann kahi c baatein dil mein reh jaati hain........♥